Wall around me

Are you still remember what I wrote in my blog last month?

"I will demolish the wall around me."
"I will accept your caring"
"I will appreciate all my friends"

But, I found it difficult for me to do so. It is why I deleted the post. When I started to treat all of my friends nicely, everything is going on very well.They sms with me, chat with me in phone or msn...I can accept all these things and I don't think that it is a problem for me although I don't like these past time. I think my wall can be demolished. I think I will success.

Unfortunately, they began to control me. They always want to know what I am doing, calling me everyday ( I enjoy chatting with my friends,but please, not everyday! I have my own work to do!), jealous when I am chatting or playing with another friends, want me to always stay beside them...Oh my goodness! I don't mind to support you when you are in troubles, I don't mind to give advises to you when you need it, I don't mind to stay with you when you are sad, but I need freedom! freedom! freedom!

I can't breathe when you are trying to keep me staying beside you. My heart can't continue to pump when you are trying to control me. I am so suffer, I am so irratate! And finally, I made a decision, to build my wall much more higher...

Recently, I find that it is not fair to my friends who do not do so. So, I make a decision again. I will demolish my wall to those who I can believe to...