Friday, December 11, 2009

It Is Time To Wake Up

Yesterday, we have a meeting in school. Somebody's action ( Is action, not what he said) make me suddenly realize that it is time for me to change some of my style of doing things.
I believe and can see many people are doing the same things as me---Less communication with partners. We always plan and do something on our own without discussing with our partners. Some of us may say because there is too many people, very difficult to inform them, no time to tell them...But, I think to make something success, we need to make sure all of them know what is going on. Although there are some problems that we may face to achieve this, we need to find a solution to solve it. Man should always try to do what is out of your `comfort zone`, then only you can SHINE. ^^

I always like to do all the things on my own. Honestly, it is because I think that I can do a better job then them. ( Sorry to all of you ). I actually have changed this habits in F4. Sad to say, I recently found out that I re-do the samething again. This is what the olders said "It is difficult to change one's personalities". I agree that it is difficult but I think nothing is impossible. So, I decided to put some effort on it again. And, to make me always not to repeat my mistakes, I think I should write it down and recall them back every month. (But, I don't think I can do it la.haha) To those who make this mistake, hope you can change it too. We gambate together ya!
*Don't be frustrated if someone is better than you, because everyone have their own field to shine. And same to you!

Well, well, well, this is the mistakes that I recently found. Hope I can change and same to eveybody.
Still remember my last post? I said I am trying to improve something within 3 hours. Once we use this method, we found out that-wow!Gosh!~!@#$%^&. So, we try to do something.The result prove that we manage to make it better. But, make it clear, it is just BETTER only. For me, I think it is ok because at least it improve some but I think I should have seen the problems earlier and ask for more information.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Gambate!

I am running out of time now. I just have one day and about 3 hours to solve this problem. After thinking for a night, I decided to use a new methd to solve it. Hopefully it is effective. Gambate!!!!

*Always try to do the impossible.HUUUU!!!!!!!

Failure

Well, I can said that today is a bad day for me. Finally, it has proved that I failed to complete a task successfully. Honestly, I feel a little bit bad for it. And, sad to say, I have not find out the MAIN problems. I did think of the problems that I may face and the solutions too. The truth told me that my solutions are not effective. I did not understand why is it not useful because I tested before and it is ok.

I did not show a disappointed expression for a whole day and some more be the one who consoled them. " Don't you feel sad?" " Don't you feel guilty?" "And why are you not feeling sad at all?" To me, ya, we SHOULD ( ya, is should, because some of them will not care although they are wrong ) feel guilty or sad for not doing the jobs well, but no use for you to be so pessimistic. I think it is better to think of the solutions immediately in stead of feeling sad and cry.

I would like to say that St John, competition really changed me a lot. It builds up my leadership, confidence, smartness, communication skill....And the most important is to be optimistic. ^^

Give up=Failure

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Principle of being a leader

1. Listen to advice but not accept it blindly
2. Do not always rely on others
3. Always learn and gain experiences
4. Think before you act
5. Confidence but not over
6. Realize your strong point and maintain it
7. Know your weaknesses and change it

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Sorry, I can't make them jump!

I know, the baby has not enough time to learn. They should know how to jump in a short period only they are able to continue their journey. But, I am very sorry to tell some of you that I can't make a baby to run when they do not even know how to crawl! Please do not think that I am so competent. Sorry to disappoint you. And, just want to let you know, they are now growing, starting to crawl and walk. Please don't just setting a high target for them and blame them when they are not giving you what you expected. Everybody, including you and me need time...

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Principle in My Life

1. There is no regret in my life no matter the decisions that I made was right or wrong as it made me mature.
2. No struggling. Whatever happens, I will not let me to loose my direction.
3. Do not influenced by others easily-Do not easily hurt by people
4. Do what enjoy me but not hurting people.
5. Listening to advices and at the same time, change my weeknesses-Think before I change as some advices are not correct or not "suitanle" to me.
6. Always believe in myself but not over confidence.
7. Positive minded-If I think I can, I can.
8. Do not mind person foresight.
9. Do not sit idle and enjoy the fruits.
10.Forgivable.
11.Enjoying loneliness.

Monday, August 3, 2009

任性

"最近的你变得很任性"
沉默了一阵子后,她说:"因为我发觉,越任性的人,得到的就越多..."

只想告诉她: 是的他们看起来是得到了他们想要的东西, 但是他们永远都得不到别人的尊重...

Thursday, July 30, 2009

No name

Rencently is very busy, not only me, but all my committee...If compare to other societies, it is true to say St John has more jobs to do. Our jobs are just like a moutain, you will always feel you can't finish the works and somemore new things are keep falling into your hands. Tears may came out from your eyes which look dying and tiring. And, at the same time, you should maintain your study so that you will not get scolded by your parents! Everyone is exhausted...

Ya, it is not easy to be a 'responsible' committee. But, you need to take it as a challange although it is difficult. This is what we called--life. Life is always full of challanges. The sun will not lighted your journey forever. The flowers beside you will not keep smiling at you throughout your life. So, what we need and should do is to let our life full of confidence again. Don't let some little things to block us to the path of mature and success.

PS: Actually, many things are not as difficult as we think. If you are willing to accept it, you will find it very easy for you to settle. Lastly, always remember,work smart but not hard.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Tired Tired and Tired

Very tired today..Last night did not sleep well ( but actually do not sleep well for 2 months)..Sick for 3 weeks..Can't answer physic questions..I have used about 1 hour to finish it..Teacher trying to fish 1 chapter in 1 day..The whole class is nearly exhausted..Looking at their face..feel more tired..Somebody is arguing for canteen day..have been chosen as vise president for PRS..Oh my goodness..actually I want to be photographer..but teacher do not allow..sorry to f3 girls cause this post should be hold by them..wana to sleep now but need to find information for project..haiz..hope tonight can sleep well......Tired......T.T

Saturday, July 11, 2009

My leader

She is my leader when I went to competition for 2 years. Just want to say what was deep in my heart, I did not like her and not willing to accept her at all. She was selfish, always thinking of her own benefits, did not care about her members, not willing to sacrifice...And even sometimes I thought it is not deserve for us to go so far because others have sacrificed so much...

But I really cannot deny that she has the luck and potential. She can perform well even sometimes she do not know how to give the treatments or what is the injuries the casualty suffer. You will not know if she is panic. This is the conclusion I made after watching the video that recorded our performance during competition. This is what we don't have and need to learn. I really admire her.

But from now on, I am not only admire her but like her very much. She do change recently. I am so surprise when she said "I think we need to practice more on our angklung."" Never mind, it is normal for you to make mistakes. I will try to help you if I can.""You can do it!"...It is impossible for her to do so before! I cannot believe my ears when these words coming out from her mouth.

From this case, I find out that it is always possible for a people to change. So, do believe that all of us can change.:]

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Looser??

May be it is too late to talk about Singapore-Malaysia competition. Just want to tell all of you, ya we loose to Singapore, but it does not mean that we are the looser. People always think that they are looser if they can't win in the competition. It is totally wrong! For me, you are a winner as long as you do not give up in everything you do. :]

ps: There must be a looser and winner in competition, so just accept whatever the result is. A person will not standing on the mountain forever.

Finally I choose...

Finally i made a decision. I rejected to be the president of PRS. Although I am not sure whether I will be the president of St John, just want to say, no matter what is the post I am going to hold, I will put in all my effort.

Many people say I am crazy to reject the post, but I am not regret at all because I know I make the right choice.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

St John or PRS?

Recently, I am questioned by many people whether I want to be the president of St John or PRS. Smiling at them and answer nothing is the only thing that I can do. It is not my right to choose whether I want to hold what post in the society. It is all depends on teachers and seniors! So, how am I going to answer you this question? How do you know both societies are going to select me as the president!

But now, Miss Lai has promised me that she is going to make me to lead PRS. And asking me the same question again and again. I choose to be quiet. I feel sorry to St John because I am not brave enough to say that I WILL CHOOSE ST JOHN because I need the coco marks...Since I am not giving her any answer, finally, she made a decision. " I think you are able to lead two societies. " I would like to thanks her for trusting me, but I do not think that I can handle it. I am not going to hold a post if I can't make sure that I can really pay 100% attention on my duty!

Next Wednesday is agm for PRS, and I have not come out with a decision yet..haiz..

Friday, June 5, 2009

To:Xiao Wen

Before competition, I am quite worry bout you. You seem can't join with us. I know it is not easy for you as you are still new in this society and not used to it yet. So I always try to make you get involve in our discussion. But I think it does not work much la. Haha..xp

You know, I was so happy when you said you want to take the uniform back and sew somemore you are going to sew for 10 people! ( For your knowledge: It is not easy to sew the uniform. Last time I took about 2 hours to sew 1 uniform.OMG) When I asked Wei Teng to help me to wear on my black shoes ( because it is new shoes ), without delaying you came and helped me. Do you know that, Wei Teng and me were so surprise that time. Your action was so unexpected and make touched.

You said you are so lucky to join NA team because we have brought you to Singapore. But, I would like to tell you that NA is so lucky with your presense as you are willing to sacrifice so much.:]

We make it to Singapore..HAHA

I was so scared before the competition because I know that it will be very difficult for us to take part in the competition next year if we make our journey stop in KL. I prayed everyday. Luckily, god is always by our side, we make it to Singapore...

I would like to thanks the teachers for acompanying us to KL. Without their presense, we might not manage to go KL and definitely can't won in the competition. May be some of the girls think that teachers were not doing many things for us, but for me, I think we can't expect every teacher will as good as Puan Tan. The teachers do not know what we are doing actually and find it boring to be with us. So, I think it is forgivable. But, of coarse, to make a society to shine we need the teachers' fully support. May be we need to do something to get their support. Let them know what is going on in the society, try to get them involve in the activities...but I think the most important thing that we must do is to respect them...

Besides teachers, I appreciate what our trainers have done for us. Thanks for their sacrifises. Without them, we will not have the chance to stand on the land of Singapore. Thank you very very much.

Thanks for the team managers and supporters too. Thanks for waking up so early to tie our hair, helping us to wear on our uniform...Although they are not the competitiors, they are willing to so much for us, somemore feel sad and even cry if we loose. I like it. I like to see people work together without thinking about the benifits. I am so proud I joined St John in AMC...:)

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Aya




I just finish reading a book named " One Litter of Tears ". This is the diary written by a girl named Aya who suffered from an incurable disease, but lived life to the fullest until her death at 25. The original story is based on the diary Aya kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen. The book that later followed entitled “One Liter of Tears" has sold over 1.1 million copies.

Aya's only wish was “to live." By carefully depicting Aya's earnest desire to live, and the love of her family, friends, and lover, the drama, “One Liter of Tears" wishes to deliver her simple but strong message: “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing."

She is my idol, how about you...

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Thanks

Some of them told me they will not join the competition again because they thought they made a shame for AMC. I am quite upset to hear this. To let a society to shine, members should not give up in whatever they do. So, I decided to send them a message:

There are two types of loose: Loose to your enemies or you loose to you yourself. For me, it is not consider loose if you loose to your enemies. You will win someday if you do not give up! But, if you loose to you yourself, that's mean you will not be the winner forever...

But, none of them reply my massage......

[MONDAY]

During the assembly Wai Yee (One of the competitors) told me that her mum will not allow her to join the quiz competition, but she planned somethings so that our friends can win in the next competition. Not only her but all of them told me that they decided to join the competition agian including the F3 girls! I am so happy to see their determination. haha.

" How can we win? All the schools are sending the 'competitors'! " -Sunday-
" We do not believe that we can't win just because we are not the competitors for fa n hn" -Monday-

Just want to tell you all: Need not to say sorry to me because you are not manage to win. What I want is not the word "sorry", but your action.

Let us gambate together :]

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Quiz...

I went to St John Hall today because there is a quiz competition. I am not the competitors this year, so I went there as supporter. Although my friends do not manage to win in it, in my heart, they are the winner as long as they do not give up. :)

Monday, April 13, 2009

Mercury

I was the leader in my group during the AMC Annual Training Camp 2008. They are not the best camper in the camp, but they are my best members in my heart.

I am quite worry at the beginning because all of them always keep silence during group discussion. To solve this problem, I tried a few method to let them involve in the discussion. They became better ( if compare with other groups, my group still consider very quiet) after a few meetings. That time I also do not know how I am going to lead the team during the camp. But, my group members really impressed me during the camp! They will try their very very best to complete their job although they are very tired. When we are cooking, I asked Jen Suen to fill the bucket with water from the toilet. She showed me a tired face. I suddenly realized that she has refilled the water for many times. I can imagine how tired she was because the bucket of water was so heavy and the distance is so far! So, I apologized to her and get other people to do it. "No! I am not tired! I still have a lot of energy!" She said and tried to show me a energetic face. Then she took the bucket and go...

My group members will not doubt any decision that I make. I can still clearly remember when I asked janice and yong xin to get me a mop, they did not berasa ragu-ragu and went away to take it. I am so SURPRISE! If me I will definitely ask my leader why do you need a mop when cooking. But, they did not do so. After they came back, I ask them to mop the floor because it was too dirty. They just said "o" and started doing it..

"Sorry, we will do better next time" When pvt Lim said we did not do well
"We are not tired, we can continue our marching" When pvt Lim ask whether you all want to rest (But actually is pvt Lim herself want to rest.Haha.)
"You are a good leader" When pvt Lim asked what was your opinion about me (Actually I really think that I cannot consider a good leader)
"Sorry we are not the best group..."

And until now you all will also call me leader. I really want to thanks for your supporting..thanks..Although we did not get the best group, all of you are best camper in my heart. I love you all.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

To: Lau Sim Fah

Lau Sim Fah, the president of PRS. I really want to thanks for her caring. Honestly, you are a nice senior...

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

4S5

My class, 4S5 is known as the best class in F4. So, all of the teachers have high expectation on us. But, the 4S5 this year is not as good as past years. And, we receive a lot of complains from many many teachers.

We are not respecting the teachers
We do not complete our works properly
we are too passive when teachers are teaching
We are too talkative
We just concentrate on our studies but ignore our coco

Since the teachers always complain bout us, we also complain our teachers. Sometimes, I think may be we should not complain, complain and complain. May be we should change. Haiz....May be I should be the who change first...

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

To all my friends

Boy
Is the one who hurt you

Boy
Is the one who make you cry

Boy
Is the one
Who break the relationship
Between you
And your friends

So
Why do you
Still need a boy
To stand beside you...

Monday, April 6, 2009

Haiz...

Finally I can online again. My computer has taken to repair last week. Haiz..I am so so so suffer to live without computer. Now only I agree with what my English teacher said: Computer is not helping the teenagers.

May be I should change my habit.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Confidence

I attended nco course( a coarse that organized by SJAM) yesterday and today. Honestly, I did not enjoy it much. But, through this coarse, I find out that amc girls are too shy to talk in front. Not because they are not good in English or BM, not because their view points are not good( actually I found that their points are quite good but they do not know how to say it out). Then, what lead this problem? The environment lead this.

Nobody dare to raise up their hand and nobody dare to show out their confidence because they know their friends will say something behind her.

" Aiya, she really likes to show off...."

To avoid this, they choose to be silence. Later and later, they could not talk in front of people because they are not trained to so, they do not have the confidence to do so!

In my opinion, teachers should always give advise to students and train them during lessons. Are teachers need to pick up the responsibilities to train us? I think yes. As a claster school, I think teacher should not only make sure the students are good in their studies and coco, but also ensure the students can always be the leader. To be a leader, we should gain our confidence first. Of coarse, students should also gain their confidence by her own.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Never give up

One of my friends won in a competition which organized in Sunday. I am very happy although I am the looser because I am satisfied to see amc win. But, of coarse it is better to be the winner. So, I try to find out what I did wrongly. And finally, I found the answer.

I am not sure my answer is correct, but I will try. I will not give up if I am wrong because it lead me to the road of success.

Brave

I did something very idiot yesterday. Everybody is laughing at me when I did so. But, I did not care for it at all, it is real. I did not feel angry, sad or shame although all of my friends, my seniors and teacher are laughing at me. I continue doing my work and complete it with a good ending.

It is no point for me to feel shame as it did not help me. What I need to do is to finish it perfectly...

If you are angry because I did such an idiot action, just scold me, just bit me, just laugh me if you want to. I will not blame anybody because man should always face their problem bravery to improve himself.

Love and Time

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,"Richness, can you take me with you?"Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!""I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you.""Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"

Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

Monday, March 16, 2009

My sis

I really feel pity to my sis. Somebody told me my sis is a person who negatively minded. Ya, I agree with her. But, I can understand her feelings. It is normal as she lives in such an environment.
Actually, all my siblings have the same feelings even me. And I am lucky because I have changed my mind this few years. It makes my life full of happiness.

I hope someday they can also change their mind and live happily

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Wall around me

Are you still remember what I wrote in my blog last month?

"I will demolish the wall around me."
"I will accept your caring"
"I will appreciate all my friends"

But, I found it difficult for me to do so. It is why I deleted the post. When I started to treat all of my friends nicely, everything is going on very well.They sms with me, chat with me in phone or msn...I can accept all these things and I don't think that it is a problem for me although I don't like these past time. I think my wall can be demolished. I think I will success.

Unfortunately, they began to control me. They always want to know what I am doing, calling me everyday ( I enjoy chatting with my friends,but please, not everyday! I have my own work to do!), jealous when I am chatting or playing with another friends, want me to always stay beside them...Oh my goodness! I don't mind to support you when you are in troubles, I don't mind to give advises to you when you need it, I don't mind to stay with you when you are sad, but I need freedom! freedom! freedom!

I can't breathe when you are trying to keep me staying beside you. My heart can't continue to pump when you are trying to control me. I am so suffer, I am so irratate! And finally, I made a decision, to build my wall much more higher...

Recently, I find that it is not fair to my friends who do not do so. So, I make a decision again. I will demolish my wall to those who I can believe to...

Responsible?

You
Are the one
Who say
We must
Take up the responsibility

But
You are the one
who irresponsible...

Saturday, February 7, 2009

做自己生命的设计师

我们不能控制生命的长度,
但可以决定它的宽度;
我们不能左右天气,
但可以改变心情;
我们不能改变容貌,
但可以展现笑容;
我们不能控制别人,
但可以掌握自己;
我们不能预知明天,
但可以把握今天;
我们不能样样得胜,
但可以事事尽力!

不是路已走到尽头,而是该转弯了

当你遇到一件事,已无法解决,甚至是已经影响到你的生活、心情时,何不停下脚步,暂时的想一想是否有转寰的空间。或许换种想法,换条路走事情便会简单点。
但,通常在那一刻,我们并来不及想到这些,只是一味的在原地踏步、绕圈,
让自己一直的陷在痛苦的深渊中。

Friday, February 6, 2009

Thanks 4 ur comitmen

I really want to thanks those who give me so much comitmen. Thanks 4 spending so much time to practice even some of u are sick. I really appreciate it very much. It is the first time I feel so touch. Thank you... 

Thanks for giving me a chance to learn

Teaching them marching really make me very tired but it also make me learn a lot. I learn the method to teach marching, I learn not to give up even they are not good, I learn to be more patient...

But if you give me one more chance to choose again, I will choose to reject because it is really tired to become 2 teams' trainer. And, the most important thing is I really do not want my parents to worry about my academic and also my health. Anywhere I still want to thanks god for giving me a chance to learn. Thanks... 

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Tired, tired and tired...

I go to school at 6.30 every morning and arrive home at 8 everyday. Why? This is because I need to stay everyday for my curricular activities. I enjoy it at the beginning but now I really feel very tired. What make me tired is I really feel uninterested in all these activities. I find out that I have heartless to handle all activities except st john businesses. Haiz...quite sad to know this.

Anywhere I will try my best to complete my jobs. It is not that bad for me to face this situation because I learn how to reject...

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

Aiya..it is impossible.
Do you think that you can do it?
I am sure I can't do it, it is too difficult!!!
I am not him, I can't do it!!!

We always give us excuses to do something. I am sure computers, cars, television and so on will not be invented if everybody think so. Haha. I am sure some of you are thinking: Of coarse la! They are so intelligent! How can I do as well as them! How you know you are not good? Edison is a good example for all of us. He was known as an idiot when he is child. But, finally he become a successful scientist! Nobody know he will success in the future even he himself. "NEVER GIVE UP" This is the key to success him.

Friends, just remember "NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE". I hope from now onwards all of us will not say immposible to ourselves.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

陷害

陷害这二个字,相信大家并不陌生.这二个字常常都会在我们的生活里出现.尤其当那个圈子里大家都想要被重视,大家都想要获得权利.我个人对这个字呢并没有什么特别厌恶,因为它对我而言只不过是生活中必定经历的东西.人不犯我我不犯人,人若犯我我必犯人,这就是我的原则.但是有的时候肉此时的影响不会太大,我不会做出什么行动,反而会跟着她的脚步一起.这也是我的原则.不过有的时候我蛮受不了一些人的.我真的觉得若你的技巧不到家那就别用吧!这只会让人捉着她的狐狸尾巴!但他们却不知道事情已经东窗事发,还在那里得意洋洋。其实我觉得既然你没有十足地把握能够成功,那何不安分守己,好好地把自己的事情做好呢!这样做不知会了你的名誉,还伤害了感情,简直是百害而无一利!所以还是趁早收手吧!

所谓防人之心不可无,所以就算你不害人家,也要随时提防别人打你的注意哦!

依赖

时常都有人说,为什么那么多人依赖你?为什么每个人有心事都会跟你讲?为什么大家都想要站在你身边?我不会特别享受被人以来的感觉(不过有时候会蛮享受),也不会特别厌恶(不过有些人让我觉得很不耐烦,不过你们放心,不是你们,因为我不会让那些人知道我有BLOG) 之所以会享受是因为我本来都喜欢做对人成长中的心理调查.哈哈哈(所以我觉得我蛮适合做心理学家)至于为什么会厌恶呢?因为有袭人有事没事都回来找我,找我已经变成他们每日必做的事情,相信大家都很清楚我只对特定的事有兴趣而已,所以这让我觉得真的真得很累.所以曾经有一段时间我尝试远离那些不会让我感兴趣的人,但是我觉得这样真的让我的生活圈子缩小了很多.所以我又回到了以前的生活...有时候真的不懂我要怎样才会有我真正想要的生活...

就是因为这样所以我会很怕我自己会太依赖一个人,因为我蛮担心她会觉得烦.所以每当我开始以来一个人时我会马上逃走.所以我从来没有尝试过在任何人的身上寻找过所谓的安全感.但是有的时候真的很累,很累...真的好想跟其他人一样,但是我股不起这个勇气,除了怕别人觉得我烦,更怕我不能够独立...有时候蛮羡慕有些人,也蛮敬佩他们,因为他们从一开始就有这个勇气了...

不过或许我不会改变我现在的生活态度以及习惯吧,除非我得到了什么启示...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

平静

全部人都觉得我不能够接受这个打击,而我刚开始是以这么认为。但当成绩公布时,我发现我的内心真的真的很平静,异常的平静。任何伤感都没有,一丁点都没有,甚至我已经知道问题在那里,甚至我已经知道要怎样去解决它。我那是非常的不解,为什么?为什么会一点感觉都没有?因为一直以来我都觉得,当一个人被某样东西击败后,她会重新活过来且变成另外一个全新不同的人。若我没有被击倒不是不能够有这种改变?而我最担心的是,或许是我自己一点都不在在乎...我一直想了又想,我一直回顾最近发生的事情.我突然发现原来早就在很久很久以前失败对我而言已经不再算是什么,他甚至已经成为了我的密友.我发现原来重那时起,我已经不再担心自己会失败,因为它们造就了我的成功,如果不是它们,就不会有现在的我.这就是为什么那时我异常的平静,就算这次是我输得最惨的一次.因为那时我相信它能让我踏上更高峰,只是我还不知道而已...

时常都有人问我为什么我永远都站在他们前面,那么我希望看了这篇文章的朋友你能够找到答案...