My sis

I really feel pity to my sis. Somebody told me my sis is a person who negatively minded. Ya, I agree with her. But, I can understand her feelings. It is normal as she lives in such an environment.
Actually, all my siblings have the same feelings even me. And I am lucky because I have changed my mind this few years. It makes my life full of happiness.

I hope someday they can also change their mind and live happily

Wall around me

Are you still remember what I wrote in my blog last month?

"I will demolish the wall around me."
"I will accept your caring"
"I will appreciate all my friends"

But, I found it difficult for me to do so. It is why I deleted the post. When I started to treat all of my friends nicely, everything is going on very well.They sms with me, chat with me in phone or msn...I can accept all these things and I don't think that it is a problem for me although I don't like these past time. I think my wall can be demolished. I think I will success.

Unfortunately, they began to control me. They always want to know what I am doing, calling me everyday ( I enjoy chatting with my friends,but please, not everyday! I have my own work to do!), jealous when I am chatting or playing with another friends, want me to always stay beside them...Oh my goodness! I don't mind to support you when you are in troubles, I don't mind to give advises to you when you need it, I don't mind to stay with you when you are sad, but I need freedom! freedom! freedom!

I can't breathe when you are trying to keep me staying beside you. My heart can't continue to pump when you are trying to control me. I am so suffer, I am so irratate! And finally, I made a decision, to build my wall much more higher...

Recently, I find that it is not fair to my friends who do not do so. So, I make a decision again. I will demolish my wall to those who I can believe to...

Responsible?

You
Are the one
Who say
We must
Take up the responsibility

But
You are the one
who irresponsible...

做自己生命的设计师

我们不能控制生命的长度，
但可以决定它的宽度；
我们不能左右天气，
但可以改变心情；
我们不能改变容貌，
但可以展现笑容；
我们不能控制别人，
但可以掌握自己；
我们不能预知明天，
但可以把握今天；
我们不能样样得胜，
但可以事事尽力！

不是路已走到尽头，而是该转弯了

当你遇到一件事，已无法解决，甚至是已经影响到你的生活、心情时,何不停下脚步，暂时的想一想是否有转寰的空间。或许换种想法，换条路走事情便会简单点。
但，通常在那一刻，我们并来不及想到这些，只是一味的在原地踏步、绕圈，
让自己一直的陷在痛苦的深渊中。

Thanks 4 ur comitmen

I really want to thanks those who give me so much comitmen. Thanks 4 spending so much time to practice even some of u are sick. I really appreciate it very much. It is the first time I feel so touch. Thank you... 

Thanks for giving me a chance to learn

Teaching them marching really make me very tired but it also make me learn a lot. I learn the method to teach marching, I learn not to give up even they are not good, I learn to be more patient...

But if you give me one more chance to choose again, I will choose to reject because it is really tired to become 2 teams' trainer. And, the most important thing is I really do not want my parents to worry about my academic and also my health. Anywhere I still want to thanks god for giving me a chance to learn. Thanks... 

Tired, tired and tired...

I go to school at 6.30 every morning and arrive home at 8 everyday. Why? This is because I need to stay everyday for my curricular activities. I enjoy it at the beginning but now I really feel very tired. What make me tired is I really feel uninterested in all these activities. I find out that I have heartless to handle all activities except st john businesses. Haiz...quite sad to know this.

Anywhere I will try my best to complete my jobs. It is not that bad for me to face this situation because I learn how to reject...

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

Aiya..it is impossible.
Do you think that you can do it?
I am sure I can't do it, it is too difficult!!!
I am not him, I can't do it!!!

We always give us excuses to do something. I am sure computers, cars, television and so on will not be invented if everybody think so. Haha. I am sure some of you are thinking: Of coarse la! They are so intelligent! How can I do as well as them! How you know you are not good? Edison is a good example for all of us. He was known as an idiot when he is child. But, finally he become a successful scientist! Nobody know he will success in the future even he himself. "NEVER GIVE UP" This is the key to success him.

Friends, just remember "NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE". I hope from now onwards all of us will not say immposible to ourselves.

陷害

陷害这二个字,相信大家并不陌生.这二个字常常都会在我们的生活里出现.尤其当那个圈子里大家都想要被重视,大家都想要获得权利.我个人对这个字呢并没有什么特别厌恶,因为它对我而言只不过是生活中必定经历的东西.人不犯我我不犯人,人若犯我我必犯人,这就是我的原则.但是有的时候肉此时的影响不会太大,我不会做出什么行动,反而会跟着她的脚步一起.这也是我的原则.不过有的时候我蛮受不了一些人的.我真的觉得若你的技巧不到家那就别用吧!这只会让人捉着她的狐狸尾巴!但他们却不知道事情已经东窗事发,还在那里得意洋洋。其实我觉得既然你没有十足地把握能够成功，那何不安分守己，好好地把自己的事情做好呢！这样做不知会了你的名誉，还伤害了感情，简直是百害而无一利！所以还是趁早收手吧！

所谓防人之心不可无，所以就算你不害人家，也要随时提防别人打你的注意哦！

依赖

时常都有人说，为什么那么多人依赖你？为什么每个人有心事都会跟你讲？为什么大家都想要站在你身边？我不会特别享受被人以来的感觉（不过有时候会蛮享受），也不会特别厌恶（不过有些人让我觉得很不耐烦，不过你们放心，不是你们，因为我不会让那些人知道我有BLOG) 之所以会享受是因为我本来都喜欢做对人成长中的心理调查.哈哈哈(所以我觉得我蛮适合做心理学家)至于为什么会厌恶呢?因为有袭人有事没事都回来找我,找我已经变成他们每日必做的事情,相信大家都很清楚我只对特定的事有兴趣而已,所以这让我觉得真的真得很累.所以曾经有一段时间我尝试远离那些不会让我感兴趣的人,但是我觉得这样真的让我的生活圈子缩小了很多.所以我又回到了以前的生活...有时候真的不懂我要怎样才会有我真正想要的生活...

就是因为这样所以我会很怕我自己会太依赖一个人,因为我蛮担心她会觉得烦.所以每当我开始以来一个人时我会马上逃走.所以我从来没有尝试过在任何人的身上寻找过所谓的安全感.但是有的时候真的很累,很累...真的好想跟其他人一样,但是我股不起这个勇气,除了怕别人觉得我烦,更怕我不能够独立...有时候蛮羡慕有些人,也蛮敬佩他们,因为他们从一开始就有这个勇气了...

不过或许我不会改变我现在的生活态度以及习惯吧,除非我得到了什么启示...

平静

全部人都觉得我不能够接受这个打击，而我刚开始是以这么认为。但当成绩公布时，我发现我的内心真的真的很平静，异常的平静。任何伤感都没有，一丁点都没有，甚至我已经知道问题在那里，甚至我已经知道要怎样去解决它。我那是非常的不解，为什么？为什么会一点感觉都没有？因为一直以来我都觉得，当一个人被某样东西击败后，她会重新活过来且变成另外一个全新不同的人。若我没有被击倒不是不能够有这种改变？而我最担心的是,或许是我自己一点都不在在乎...我一直想了又想,我一直回顾最近发生的事情.我突然发现原来早就在很久很久以前失败对我而言已经不再算是什么,他甚至已经成为了我的密友.我发现原来重那时起，我已经不再担心自己会失败，因为它们造就了我的成功，如果不是它们,就不会有现在的我.这就是为什么那时我异常的平静,就算这次是我输得最惨的一次.因为那时我相信它能让我踏上更高峰,只是我还不知道而已...

时常都有人问我为什么我永远都站在他们前面,那么我希望看了这篇文章的朋友你能够找到答案...